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Life's had always been a drama. Too much of a drama indeed that I got real sick of it. Had always been a rollercoaster ride for me, having sudden unexpected climax and in another second, it might just drop to 0.5degrees. Thats just life. Live it to the fullest and remember not to expected too much, the fall might just be an unbearable one.

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Friday, December 28, 2007

Contemplating wad might go further. Gawt! 2008 in 3 days time? how scary would it be? Haa, should i look forward to it with a whole lists of my new resolutions or continue to be infested by "pests"(if u noe wad i mean) and go on with life like a muddle-tard, carrying along my fucking habits and be that same,old me? Oh my, i stil cant believe 2008 is so near to me. Seems so alarming luh. People always believe to set new resolutions and well stick to it. Tt was Crap, for all i noe. It always happen like tis i realised, pple set a whole fucking endless lists of wad they would want to have and change for a better self.. But Ask urself, did u follow dem closely at all, or u were same as me, shun-ning it away in a cloistered corner of your mind membrane? Where when tok abt it, u hardly had any idea and it seems unbelievable that it was set by you months ago. Well, thats was exactly wad i am like. So, im not in tt particular mood and tt craziness to create a big HOO HAA abt tat fucking new year. And, im not one to create tt madness endless resolution lists which never ends at till the next universe. LOL. Therefore, I set to limit

myself to only one. And tt is, CAREER or Studies! And a lil wish

for the following year, i too limit to only one, HEHs, Not being greedy alrite.

And its Romance. (: Everyone seems so blissful in love luh, *well,
most of my frens are! Imma left on the shelf for long! Sighs. U might feel like im toking a whole bunch of nonsense but hey, those attached wun deciphers how i feel at all, knoe like its gud to snuggle into someones arms and a someone to turn to when things burst out and turned in the wrong way. Yes, no girls wouldnt love pampering and dote. Im a girl too, so its of all natural platform tt i feel tis way. i admit. its like so long of dawling abt, sometimes i just wonder shld i gave up to go for other guys. GAwt. Nth seems better with all tis shiat loneliness, feeling isolated agains, drawing myself out of tt loophole, i gonna be fine, i reassured. i am fucking lonely when nights come by, it seems hard to fall aslp.

SAd.

yes, i had another yest affair with eyes pinning at my lappy screen. Yeah, tts how scary when schedule deadlines rilly became urgent. U just had no time more to lose, every mins and secs were extremely impt and nothin in ur mind seems to reflect other image, u wun want to have thoughts about going out now. Like me, i am so busy busy tis few days and weeks tt i hardly missed dummie, and i had keep myself off msg-ing him every now and then. I simply had no time for it.

Gawt. Even christmas was not well celebrated. I was at home. sighs. Christmas always made me want to.. u noe gather and snuggle at some BFF's house and had a mini party of exchanging pressies under the dim lighted christmas tree. Sighs, Yes. to be honest, it had never happened b4 after some donkey years. And for a million reasons, i missed tt kind of Christmas. I am switching to loving peaceful christmas from the ever-noisy town celeration. But i dun have tt kind of celebration party anymore. Like i have close friends but they wouldnt done up with tis kind of thing or they simply cant be bothered luh. Its like so fun setting a budget to the gifts and exchanging upon balloting, it seems so much meaningful to me. Like u would go particularly to get tt pressie, efforts put into kind. But well, its okay luh, just not in tt particular luck to have such fwens. )':

Christmas was more of a mind-imploding session spent in my room as I was fuelled by lethal shots of boredom and under the stifling pressure of the environment to shut the hell up. Only lunch time and dinners seem irrefutably comfortable to me, at least. I could rest only within tt slot. Noe wad, yest affair-yup.. with different image and colors painted in my mind, i slept only when the clock hits 5am!! tts the limit. Couldnt take it further, i pop-ped into bed. And the next day will be up at 7 plus. Fucking crazy rite, and yes, pls stop irritating me these few days, im rilly not in the mood further, throwing tantrums at home - guess its the result of insufficient sleeps, it do drive pple crazy sometimes. I was rather astounded by my recent ability of my body to be able to withstand the long hours focus at doing something. I swear, but i had never ever stayed up til 5 plus, oh it truly was a record man. When i abruptly shifted myself to my bed, preparing to nap, lights outside my room shoned tru the gaphole underneath the door, i had den realised daddy and brother had woke up. Apparently, they were all preparing themselves for work and personal commitments. I had then bring myself to realise how "early" the time was at that moment. Like im gng to sleep and my rest are waking up. Oh gosh, im seeing colors and images again, in my dream! Shiat! Im infesting my eyes to such torment.

sighs, gues due to the lifeless days, where its all hectic.. im reverting to my constant eating behaviour. Nothin seems better congesting my stomach with more and more food, snacking here and there. Im fatter now. ): By *kgs. sighs. Shed off, shed off, shed off the dumbass fat tissues away from my body. ARGhh. I was redeemm-ing myself from the sinful acts by assuring myself that i will exercise to kill dem all off the next day. Tts pretty comforting huh? but it serves no purpose, just to make myself feel better after e sinful indulgence. LOL.

Thoughts seem to meander like a wind. Ahh. wad am i thinking?

i hope january end fast! am alr looking ahead beyond january. For ending of jan is my last paper, and im an official graduate, it cuts an ending point to my education perhaps? haha(*who noes rit). My ultimate wish now is for everything to turn better. like all projects and exams and mugging.... All stop. Im so tired of studying! the sudden lethargic when my final phrase is able to complete in like one mth time. And.. toking abt exams, i hadden laid my hands on any modules yet, and yea. im freaking damn guilty abt it. Fuck! my 2 weeks break seem to just gone off like tis. Im feeling more and more like a nutCASe. Argh. a Non-productive one.


Ending off my super friggin long post before i land myself with a thud under my com desk. Hmmmm.

I am so used to using 'imma' which refers to 'I am' LOL. i dunnoe why but my fingers just seemed obediently typing 'imma' when i am thinking abt 'I am'. well, it just my form of calling my words i guess. Dummie says imma corny using tis word. LOL. Please. And and Stop teasing me pls, with so much a nicknames u created. he just called me spicy potato chips cos i told him i love love tanning. and i just went weeks ago. Ha. And whats up with the snow white thingy! im Black princess OKAY. As strong! snow white seems sickly to me luh. oh, hell crap.

Now, the time is 8 plus in e morning! Preeps, im off to bed again! . tata. ):

PS: Amanta babe, am so so so sorry abt procastinating our meetups, like always. I haven got the least time and energy to crawl out. Hope u understand. ((: Its okay if i just leave my stuffs at ur side first. Its not of a hurry for me to collect. Yep. Andd. i rilly owe u tis time. Sorry babe. LOVE U!

8:17 AM

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