I naively tot hugs u gave me was suppose to be special. Least to me. Bt well, it appears tt ur hugs are out to all girls. FINE, i can no longer take it anymore. Next thing, Ur disregardness for my feelings i had enuff of dem. U're just insensitive.

Well, maybe its a good way of ending. Ciara-my love. e song which puts a full stop to our friendship. No longer thers conversation flowing within, i really dunnoe how i shld face u further.

I ought to be moving ahead, mastering to be a stronger girl, in e inner self. Tears no more, he dun deserve it, tts wad i made myself understood.

Its depleting my layer of tolerance day by day. End of e day, i'l just stare away in nothingness, nothing sought, just more and more giving out. Im tired, like totally.

You just continue ur part on fulfilling ur pretendance, leaving me to a whole bunch of redundance effort pumped in. I called dat cowardness, ur surge to hide ur emotions well, not letting it leak into tis pretendance game, i've to mentioned it is of high-skill, really. U have reachd in achieving ur goals, and pushing me over the legde with just one swift move. Im falling from a high level, a fast speeding one, with pressurized wind tt accompany, i felt free at tat moment, e let go. I felt as tho like a sheet of thin paper, weighless, carefree, swaying in the rythm of the gushy wind. Suddenly, the pressure seemed to speed to 200% and drop to a stop. Tts a major hit. My frail body seemed to pulverize into a million pieces, scattered all over, heart bleeding profusely, and im losing grip, breathless for once. Thanks, i felt so much better. Least it rid me off all the pain within. Taking away you from my mind, i hope, i just hope tt u have nv been here, nv entered into my life before, i would lead a much happier life. But now, it all seems too late. U had ruin my inner well being like, completely. Overpowering me, i felt totally conquered.

Never would u ever take a close glance at me. Always taken for granted it seem. Im gonna withdraw from tis game totally, leaving u to play with e banker, u might find someone, bt i can assure tt u'l nvr find someone like me. Thers no other one tt is gonna tolerate all the shiat out of u i bet.

Im gonna live my everyday to be a worthful one.

Sidetracking, its a month more to my 21st. tts like so freaking near. And i hadden booked anything yet. OH my.

Im superly Looking forward to my 21st bash. AWWWwwww.
will my mum gets me wad i want? so much in lists.
coach wallet! perfume! Makeup....M.A.C. Lancome. YSL. ...... okok, im not tt greedy.

Actually just a simple celebration is good enuff. With all my lovelies present. HEARTS. ((X