Life's just a rollercoaster ride.

Apparently, i seemed to be too soft on one end and suffering eventually.

Monday nitesome. Dinner with Joel after work. He accompanied me over to collect my grad robe. Yeah. Sighs, was it on my part or just no one to blame? maybe im just a jinx tt bad luck always seem to bestow on me. On tt day itself, needless to say.. something happened. Joel carelessly placed his ipod on his back pocket and the screen broke when he sat down in the bridal shop while i tried on my stuffs. And his complete mood was totally like hell, shutting off, nt really toking much tt day. I din spoke much either. First tt time is lost of wallet, and now.. ruined ipod, wads next tgt with me will happen.? FUK, he told me smth unpleasant tt i feel like almost shutting myself to complete silence.

Next, towned to have dinner. Cos he wants to make a trip to epicentre. To chk wadever could be covered under warrant. At the wheel-locks. Take a look at the damn queue number.. its so hell long away. I sat Totally stranded for once, he said he wanted to walk ard. FINE. IKNOWYOUAINTFEELINGGOOD! NEITHERAMIATALLBITS. Bt 4get it man. In a fit of air, unable to contain the discomfortness.. by the time we went cine to have dinner, my appetite was alr lost. Dinner was at this new jap cafe at cine. His treat. Digressing, he even went to mention abt the 3 girls who he danced with at the podium during his bdae celebration at ZOUK. Those 3 girls went to view his friendster... and he just told me during the dinner tt they alr became friends and they went out last week. OH, even more fantastic. How shld i react, u tell me? I just vaguely forced out a smile and spoke nothing.

Forget it, u always seem to disregard my feelings, and ya.. other girls (which u aint even close with). u are overly concerned abt dem. So, just wad am i to you? Your actions are plainly more than a friend and u arent taking a step further and just wad are u thinking? Its alr been 3 odd years. Im always a substitute, someone whom u'l turn to when e whole world appears to abandon you. A place where u'l always run to when tears are dripping as if its flooding. Cos u noe i wun abandon. U just noe i wun. REalising tt ive wasted 3 years of my youth, plainly waiting for nothingness, how better am i suppose to be. On ur part, u'l just continue to pretend, and im just wasting my time further. FUggin ridicule. I told u tt ciara, my love tt song's nice, and u seemed to feel awkward and replied with a mere 'so-so'. I gues u noe wad im trying to hint bt chose to avoid. Cos i mentioned 'its sometimes the lyrics tt made songs so complete, like ciara-my love, it totally speaks my mind'

msn nick tt day was: 'will u catch me if i fall one day?'
private msg: 'heart bleeding profusely, im shattered into a million pieces.'

And he came to ask me abt my private msg. U still got the cheek to ask me. I gave a prompt reply and signed out, knocked off from work, din really want to talk much to him. SHUTS OFF.

yest affair. Thurs. went gym.. caught frank and his friends ther. Cool. Nice gyming session, been long since i hit the gym. It was an impromtu decision. PRolly to kill the brain cells from further exhaustion due to tt issue, exercise will keep me off for a lil while. YEah.

Good or bad news. my employment is extended with ASCENDAS PTE LTD. Till end may. HEEE. Money money money, tts the only motivation i have to look forward now.

Another one, tmrrr. Sentosa again and some places then. Cant tell u yet. Wait till its over. (: hahaha. *EVIL SMILE* (sorrie, cos my TAT FREN READS MY blog, in order not to let TT FREN NOES, i just shut up and update a later time)

Tmr will be a cheeky day.

sorry, my sequence are ROJAK, messiness, i mentioned abt things here and there, bits and pieces. Ahhhhhh. sorrry preeps. my apology.

And last thinggg. . AMANTA, I MISS UUUUUUUUU! Beeeen some time we're nt meetinggggg. Some currymee, some facial, some dimsum or wadever wadever. HAHAHAHA. GAWT. IM FAT! ):

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